Chance

"All humans deserve a second chance"
This is a very famous and prominent phrase that most people use to gain a second chance from someone...
and I, myself, also thinks that people deserve a second chance...no matter what they do...

But, sometimes, people don't really appreciate a second chance...
Most of them blew it up....and eventually asked for another one....over and over again....
I'm one of them i can said...
It happens a lot to me when I met my first lover.....
I admitted that i did a lot of shitty stuffs towards her..
I got angry and jealous easily...and she was mad every time i did these and wanted to broke up
So...I beg for chances and forgiveness from her...even i don't remember how many times i did it...LOL
Until one day.....even I sometimes can't bear with her attitude....so i chose to "broke up" with her.

Then i said to myself. "I shall change myself".
But shortly after i said that, I met her...(my angel)
We met in a gathering...we barely talk for the 1st time la...
We started talking (I 4gt when) and texting and calling each other...
I've started to fall for her when we went shopping together for the 1st time...
then bla bla bla....we got together for like a year before "crisis" happens...
I should have foreseen the "issue" before it became a "crisis" because I've dealt with it before...sigh
She was there complaining about my temper, immaturity and bla bla bla...
and when I think back....THIS HAS HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE...meaning...
I'VE MADE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN...sigh
So, I've begged for a second chance...but guess what...I was rejected....coooolll
But then....she gave me a hint..."only time will tell whether we'll be together again or not"...
Then i thought again.....maybe this is a "second chance" for me to undo my wrongdoings...
I'm grateful that she gave me a 2nd chance indirectly...and I hope I'll make good use of it..
Now the other thing that I can do is just.....hope that she won't end up with another one....