Weird feelings....

I've been very very "out-of-track" for the feelings I had recently....

I'm not sure what feeling it is.....

is something like...."I miss you"....but not "love you" that kind of weird feeling....

I had these feelings towards one girl whom I shouldn't have it........(guilty)


Another case happened few days ago....(two days??)

When I happened to bumped onto my ex in a LRT....

She was coming out and I was going in......

It feels weird....

I felt so wanted to talk to her at that time....but I couldn't....

I admitted that I do miss her la (not that kind of "love" or "like" type of miss)

Maybe she was with that "fella" that time....that's why I don't dare to speak with her....

or maybe she still loathes me for what I did before....weird...


Lastly...is you-know-who......

Last month, I've went back to a place where I acknowledged it as my third home...(1st Perak, 2nd Brunei)

But before that, a day before I went back, out-of-nowhere I bumped into her....(weird feelings again.....)

I went and talked to her...we talked like as if we are very very good friends or friends who haven't met for months....but in fact, we are "not"

Then after that, I went back with my bros.....and I said "I'M HOME K*****!!!"

Then we went yum cha....cc...chit chatting....peeping on girls XP.....

And I've never thought that one of my bro asked her out for bfast...

That really shocked me....I don't even know what to say....I was like "Hi" only...

I couldn't even open my mouth or move any parts of my body in front of her...

weird.....weird....here's the question....is it because that I still loves her, thats why I couldn't speak up......

Or.....Do I loathed her for what she did??......weird.......