Weird feelings....

I've been very very "out-of-track" for the feelings I had recently....

I'm not sure what feeling it is.....

is something like...."I miss you"....but not "love you" that kind of weird feeling....

I had these feelings towards one girl whom I shouldn't have it........(guilty)


Another case happened few days ago....(two days??)

When I happened to bumped onto my ex in a LRT....

She was coming out and I was going in......

It feels weird....

I felt so wanted to talk to her at that time....but I couldn't....

I admitted that I do miss her la (not that kind of "love" or "like" type of miss)

Maybe she was with that "fella" that time....that's why I don't dare to speak with her....

or maybe she still loathes me for what I did before....weird...


Lastly...is you-know-who......

Last month, I've went back to a place where I acknowledged it as my third home...(1st Perak, 2nd Brunei)

But before that, a day before I went back, out-of-nowhere I bumped into her....(weird feelings again.....)

I went and talked to her...we talked like as if we are very very good friends or friends who haven't met for months....but in fact, we are "not"

Then after that, I went back with my bros.....and I said "I'M HOME K*****!!!"

Then we went yum cha....cc...chit chatting....peeping on girls XP.....

And I've never thought that one of my bro asked her out for bfast...

That really shocked me....I don't even know what to say....I was like "Hi" only...

I couldn't even open my mouth or move any parts of my body in front of her...

weird.....weird....here's the question....is it because that I still loves her, thats why I couldn't speak up......

Or.....Do I loathed her for what she did??......weird.......

Is the time of the month again~~~XD

My God!!!

Is the freaking time of the month again!!

IM HAVING "PERIOD" PAIN!!

huh?? not reli period pain la (of coz la....guys can't have periods....if they do....oops XP)

I'm just having some serious stomachache these few days...

Damn FRIGGIN PAINFUL!!!

can anyone suggest any nice, fast and efficient medicine for me?? :p

Happy Birthday!!

Happy 61st birthday to my most beloved dad in the whole wide world!!! *Hugs!!
Sorry that I wasn't there for you because I can't adjust and squeeze out some free time for you
But I promise that I'll be there for you for the following year, the year after, the year after "the year"~~until NO END~~~
You have been a very very good and supportive dad.
You'll always take good care of us, giving us more allowance each week (Mom doesn't know)
You'll always be there for us whenever we faces troubles and obstacles
Although I seldom have a nice conversation with you, but I can still feel your love coming out from the words you said to us.....Thanks Dad....Thank God for allowing me to born in this family.
Being your son is the proudest thing that I'll ever had in my life
I'm grateful that I've had you as my father...I love you dad~~~(take good care, don't always work OT) ^^

I'll be there next year!! LOVE YOU DAD!!

funny but cute name~~^^

I've been in two relationships~~~and the 2 of them have few things in common:
Christian....Malaysian...related to TAR...Kampar...Girls (= =)....bla bla bla (many more)
But it is their name that makes me remember both of them the most...
BECAUSE THEY HAVE 2 REDUNDANT WORDS IN THEIR NAME~~~(is it right to say like tat??)
1st: ching2
2nd: wai2

XD~~~so next will be who leh?? wen wen?? lei lei?? miao miao (XD)~~~

Happy Valentines to Myself

Happy "Lonely" Valentines Day to Myself again...
How many "again" have i been saying this to myself? sigh...can't remember...
For 22 long years, I have never ever celebrated this day with anyone in my life before...
At least I have friends with me during New Year, Chinese New Year, and of course, Christmas Day.
But just not during valentines because most of them have their own dates or partner...
I know there's a lot "me" out there suffering the same situation...but mine's different...
I didn't celebrate with Miss C, my 1st X during valentines day 2 years ago....
The same thing happen to me last year but with another one, Miss J...
sigh....special eh?? Both of them said the same thing to me..

"If we truly loved each other, everyday is valentine's day for us"

I've heard this a lot of time from them...sigh...I know it might not be something special for them...

But for me, I think is kinda special....Because most of the couples around the world celebrates Valentine's Day together....

Going out for dinner, Trip or vacation, Bla bla bla bla (cause i don't know much on how to others celebrate it)

Well, guess I'll be alone again this year's Valentines...maybe God wants me to be that way...You'll never know....

Hope next year will be better la....so HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE~~~

South Park Rules!!

"Retard fish goes on to make more retard babies. And then one day a retard baby fish crawls out of the ocean with its mutant fish hands and it had butt sex with a squirrel or something and made this retard-frog-squirrel. And then that had a retard baby which was a monkey-fish-frog. And then this monkey-fish-frog had butt sex with that monkey. And that monkey had a mutant retard baby that screwed another monkey, and that made you. So there you go. You're the retarded offspring of 5 monkeys having butt sex with a fish-squirrel. Congratulations" South Park~~~

New Year, New Start~~

Two weeks in Ipoh really calmed me down a lot~~~especially after some advices given by my family~~
I really do enjoy the time being with my family~~~and love being with them especially during Chinese New Year...where you can chit-chat with other members of the family....drink with them...bla bla bla~~
I think it is a very good start for me after being so "down" for a very long time...
So....my resolutions for new year are!!!!......

1) lost 80% of the fats inside me...
2) develop a sexy and fit physique...
3) focus in my studies...
4) forget the past and look towards a brighter future and "chance"... ngek ngek